lesson learned :/ ...

so im officially crazy.

i think i've known it all along, but im an over-exaggerator and a dramatist at worst.

i think it must be because ive been through so much pain and heartbreak and all that nasty stuff, and THATS why i'm so paranoid that everyones out to get me. im SO scared to let anyone get in, that when i finally LET THEM, i sabotage it to all hell and tear it to pieces so they can no longer creep inside me anymore.

im scared of hurt, but i think i CAUSE more pain because im trying to skate around it. (if you catch my drift...)

on top of that because of this stress im breaking out. ugh. my skin always seems to have problems!!! if its not one pimple, its another lol a constant reminder of my imperfections everyyy mornniiinnnnggg!!! 

ok, who am i kidding, ive got it pretty good. im working on my album, doing what i love (not really getting paid necessarily yet...but i'm getting there ;) 

so things aren't so bad. 

so why must i always MAKE them be? its like im comfortable in chaos, so just when things start to get good, they end up being all screwy and nutso because i sense something is too "right".

haha. ill work on it i guess, night night

im watching the N and going to sleep now.

p.s.- i wrote another song today! it was kind of a joke....

its called

"the walk of shame"

does anyone know what that is? and have YOU guys ever done the walk of shame?? ;)

xxx

-Myah Marie!